Where the Heart Won't Go »

A. Mistory is passionate about life: consciousness, intelligence, curiosity, creativity, how we came to be as we are in general, our ability to be introspective, our insight, compassion, the depths our love can reach, and the lustful passionate love we can achieve. We are much more than most of us ever think we are. All of the characters are written as if real, and their stories as if they truly happened; the characters are imbued with a zest for life, love, passion and especially its awakening in us with such a lustful force. Life really is stranger than fiction, and has so many faces. These stories find those places, and hopefully make them real for the reader. The characters are written as if the characters would love to have others see them if they were writing the story. Getting lost in the characters is not unusual, as is staying awake at night, or even waking up thinking about and feeling them as if being told what to write, and how.

An avid reader – when there is time – indulging in novels, particularly those by Linda Howard and Chelsea Quinn Yarbro, are a delight. A favorite novel is “Becoming Bobbie” by R. J. Stevens. In writing about love, it is no surprise that the the actual letters of the continuing love of Heloise for her lover/ex lover, Abelard, is considered the finest love story ever written. When reading them, they bring ripples of sensations through the body with chills and shivers that seize the mind and make one captive to them. The unheard of honest, and openly lustful sexuality that defied the times is enthralling. Those letters are felt to be better by far, and more erotic to the mind, and therefore the senses, than any novelist ever wrote.

Nikki, young and beautiful, should be carefree, but two problems make her seek help. Gayle Colburn is a competent psychiatrist, but her involvement in Nikki’s life adds another problem to Nikki’s already overburdened life--she falls in love with Gayle as soon as she sees her!

But as Nikki’s original problems reach a critical point, and she reveals more of the truth to her doctor, Gayle feels, despite her better judgment, more and more compelled to keep her client safe in ways that may not be professionally appropriate. Nikki’s mother and boyfriend are toxic influences, and Gayle is eventually pushed to her limit to help her client.

Seeking advice from Miriam, her mentor and partner in practice, Gayle realizes, finally, that what Miriam says is true-where the heart won’t go hasn’t yet been discovered. Sinking deeper together, Nikki and Gayle struggle to find meaning in their lives and each other as the world pushes them toward answers-and each other.

Warnings: This title contains graphic language and lesbian sex.