Down on My Knees » (Reprint)

Victor McGlothin is a former bank vice-president who nearly forfeited an athletic scholarship due to poor reading skills. Victor is also an on-line columnist of Victor Said., a real Brotha to Sistah look at relationships. Living in Dallas with his wife and two sons, he is hard at work on his next novel and as a contributing writer for D Magazine.

God. It s me again- Grace. I sure hope you re listening because I really need you to hear me tonight. I know that you re well versed on my shortcomings concerning sins of the flesh, so I ll get right to it. Lately, my desires have gotten the best of me. This celibacy thing we ve talked about, isn t working out quite like I d hoped. It seems that the harder I try to do right, the more I want to do wrong. Not that it s an excuse it s just that I get so lonely sometimes. I ve even fooled myself into thinking that sharing a man s warm embrace could somehow satisfy those urges but it s never enough. Eventually, I find myself wanting more and more until, well, you know the rest. I guess what I m saying, what I m praying for, is some extra consideration this evening because that old feeling has me wanting to do the kinds of things I promised I wouldn t. You know my weakness, so I m asking for the strength to make it through the night. Thank you God, for hearing me out. In Jesus name. Amen.